Sensitive bodies

Our bodies feel everything.

Have you ever felt some type of way but not been able to logically make sense of it in your mind?

That’s because we are all intuitive beings and in tune with the world around us!

After experiencing a shit load of grief, I became even more sensitive than I was before.

I sense energy and people’s emotions very easily. I also get overstimulated more easily then prior to my grief. It is starting to shift a little bit, being about 1 and a half years in from my last loss. Healing takes time. It takes a lot of patience.

Grief taught me how to rewire my idea of “productivity”. I love to be go, go, go and busy, but that wasn’t so good for me while going through grief. I had to learn how to be more still. I had to learn that being busy was just distracting me from my pain. To a degree, I think it’s important to distract yourself a little bit, but it’s also important to sit in your grief and trauma.

The thing is, if you drown it out, it will wait. Grief and trauma always wait. It will stay in the body until you are ready to process it. If something traumatic happened when you were 7 and you never processed it, it doesn’t just go away, it waits.

I have been learning that my body naturally is tense. In my bodys natural state, it is in survival mode. I am working on rewiring that. Far before all the grief and loss that started in 2023 for me, I was living in survival mode. The major losses were just what finally made me recognize I needed to change.

I recognized that the way I was living was no longer working for me.

That’s the thing about hardship: it creates massive change if you let it.

I am inspired most by the way people can bloom from the depths of hell. The pain, the grief, the sadness…it is what makes us who we are.

We live for those we have lost. We live for our inner child, who mourns the childhood we thought we should have had.

After all, we all chose this.

God bless

xxx, Jenna